This is Where I’m Pausing — Not Ending
Forty days.
That’s how long I’ve been showing up here — early mornings, late nights, between shifts, in the quiet spaces I carved out when the world pressed too heavy.
Forty days of drafting, writing, publishing, creating, and letting my thoughts become proof that I was here.
It feels as though I’ve done so much in 3 months than I had in my entire lifetime. Something amazing, something worth while. But now?
Now, I need to pause.
Why I’m Stepping Back
Writing daily has given me momentum I didn’t think I had. It’s helped me build a voice, connect with Fellow Archivists, create sticker ideas, written 2 PDFs, and keep moving forward when life felt suffocating.
But the truth is: I’m tired.
I work two jobs. I lose sleep. I’ve been burning through myself to make space for these words. And while spite and fire have carried me further than I imagined, they can’t sustain me forever.
If I want this archive to grow with me — not collapse under me — I need to rest.
What This Means for the Archive
This is not the end.
I’ll still be active on The Stratagem’s Archive. I’ll still be tending the space — updating old posts, refining what’s here, and making sure this doesn’t just become another abandoned corner of the internet.
Though, there won’t be new posts for a while. Not until I’ve taken enough time to breathe, to sleep, and to come back with more clarity and strength.
To the Silent Readers and the Vocal Ones
Thank you.
Whether you’ve left comments, liked posts, subscribed, or simply read in silence at 3AM — your presence matters. You’ve been part of these forty days, even if we never exchanged a word.
You all made writing worthwhile, even when I started writing here for myself.
Here is a gift you could check out below if you’d like for being here and as Fellow Archivists:
Two Manifestos + A Gift (For Fellow Archivists)
Until I Return
Taking a break and resting isn’t failure. Rest is part of the fight.
So, consider this a pause — not an ending. I’ll be back when I’ve refueled, with more to share and more experiments to build with you.
Until then, keep going in your own way. Keep growing, even if it’s in silence.
— Stratagem’s Archive
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