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  • Canines Over Felines

    Dogs or cats?

    I’ve preferred dogs over cats, even though I like them too, having dogs around meant security: literally and physically. The area I grew up in is considered “ghetto” by our standards and where I lived is usually where a lot of activities tended to be.

    Cops, ambulances, and fire fighters would always show up for something. Not at our property, but rather the properties across from us. It could be in the dead of night and you’d see their colors flashing through the curtains. Having dogs around allowed us to be alerted when someone came near our flimsy fence, whether walking by, walking their pets, stray dogs causing trouble, or people were possibly up to no good. It was better safe than sorry.

    Even with security cameras installed outside, I had furry companions to keep me and my family company. My parents, my dad’s older brother, and I lived with my grandma in a 3 generation home. Even though I moved out to experience what living on my own was like, rather out of necessity, I hate myself for leaving because my grandma is over 80. She’s sound of mind and mobile, but my dogs: an older adopted female red nose pit bull mix and one female and one male, both runts of their respective litters, XXL pure blue nose pit bulls, keep her company and watch the property.

    Dogs always gave nothing but love: they want to play with you, cause trouble, protect you, even when they rely on us, they have no ulterior motives. Even when my dad and I adopted my old lady dog from the humane society years ago, she used to be a stray and was wild. She would scratch and bite me, but I didn’t care, she was scared.

    Even when we brought her home to our other adopted female red nose pit bull mix, they constantly fought until we saw blood. I didn’t want to take her back because Bianca, my old lady’s name, would have been put down, even though she was very difficult to handle. It took her time to get adjusted, then she calmed down, and she would take care of our other dog, Minnie, as she got older in age.

    Bianca still waits by the front yard for Minnie because my parents took her to the vet to be put down because she suffered a stroke: couldn’t eat or drink without help, she couldn’t move her lower body nor sit up, and it was a very difficult decision for us to make. She was suffering and Bianca saw us put Minnie in the truck, I stayed behind because I couldn’t watch her go like that, as Bianca tried to break through the fence to follow.

    So, when I come home, even before moving out, Bianca waits by the fence, she’ll sleep there or in front of our house door, all of our dogs become outside dogs after a certain age, until we all come home. She takes care of our newer dogs; our girl blue nose, Ka’ena, is much bigger than Bianca, but, once Bianca growls or puts her paw on Ka’ena’s head, she immediately listens, then goes into zooming mode. Bianca isn’t young anymore, but she keeps the younger dogs in line.

    The boy, Kainalu, gives Bianca trouble. We don’t know why these two fight if we let them out together to play, but they would growl at each other and they have attacked each other a few times where blood was drawn. However, when I saw them out together when I let Kainalu out to use the bathroom and to play while I washed my car, Bianca pushed her way out of her kennel and the two were egging each other on.

    I had to put Kainalu back in his house because he doesn’t know how to pop the lock or can push through his gate, yet, like Bianca. Bianca has more freedoms than the other dogs because she’s older and manages herself better than they do.

    All of our dogs are knuckleheads, but they’re our knuckleheads, and I love them very much. I feel less lonely with them, even with family, and they tell you what they want by going in their house for food and water, they sit or wander by us for attention, and they play to get energy out to sleep. People are different and tough to read, but dogs are more honest and trustworthy.

  • Implementing Structure in Chaos

    What strategies do you use to maintain your health and well-being?

    Well-being and Well Practiced:

    The strategies I use to maintain my health and well-being vary by the situation. Not every strategy, I’ve come to believe, is a one size fits all and I’m a kinesthetic kind of person. I usually experience things physically and I would need physical outlets to expel as much energy as I can. For example:

    • I’m feeling excited: I have to differentiate which feeling of excitement I’m experiencing. If its anger, then it’ll manifest as my mind slowly latching on to a perceived problem, my shoulders will tense, a brick will drop in my stomach, my hands will ball into fists, and I’ll have the strong urge to want to break something (or someone).

    If I’m working at my warehouse job, then I’ll use it as strength to move more freight than usual, but I won’t be pleasant to be around. But if I’m working at my rage room job, then I can experience controlled chaos vicariously through the customers visiting because I can hype them up.

    Otherwise, when I’m at home, I’ll take a walk around the neighborhood, I’ll use my kettlebell and perform: goblet squats, KB swings, KB halo casts, suitcase carry, or Turkish get-ups throughout the day as incidental training sets. I’ll do calisthenics, practice boxing and kicking in my apartment since I can’t practice my wrestling or BJJ without disturbing my downstairs neighbors with my sandbag. I’ll do what I can to keep myself active and fit with the small gym I made in my studio.

    Else, if it’s not anger, then I’m feeling ecstatic: it’ll manifest as excessive energy has been injected into my legs. I can’t sit or stand still, I’ll be bouncing on my feet or rocking back in forth in place on my heels to my toes, and I’ll be a human equivalent to a dog that has the zoomies.

    This is where I need to do something. If I’m at home, then this could mean anything: I want to watch a movie that looks interesting, I get to work on a personal project, I finally have enough money to attend a gym or an event I REALLY wanted to check out, try out a new skill, I want to explore an idea and I have it written down so I remember it, I get to hang out with somebody, or I’m going on vacation and I have my time for myself.

    Although, when my energy is lower than usual, my mind is blank, and I’m not obsessing over something to the point where I think something is wrong, I revel in my slow days too. On these days, I take advantage of not having the compulsion to do something, and I can sit with my other, non-physical interests:

    • Read a book for 5-15 minutes and get through my huge backlog.
    • Meditate for between 1-5 minutes a day, at least.
    • Box breathing with a 4-4-6 cadence for 1-5 minutes throughout the day.
    • Work on a few sketches: line art, learn to blend color, add lighting, work on backgrounds, etc.
    • Listen to a daily Alux lesson and contemplate how to incorporate it into my life or how it already has before the lesson.
    • Journaling what’s interesting, what I liked, what I wished was better, and what steps I’m taking to make and be better.
    • Playing video games for an hour or 2.
    • Watch YouTube videos, revisit my online learning experiences, and apply it.

    I have a lot of activities that has me doing something; whether it’s physical or mental challenges, I take in the very rare moments where I simply stare at my ceiling – I’m not thinking or dreading, I don’t feel compelled or depressed, I don’t have to feel the need to strive or put myself down – and I simply exist and I’m, finally, albeit briefly, content.

    I also enjoy talking stories with certain people, my grandma especially, or I just listen to her talk. If anyone does something for their well-being that is different and interesting, I would love to know what it is that you do to keep yourself sane amidst the noise and chaos. Might inspire something new to explore and try out for fun.

  • Leveling Up Exploration Skill IRL:

    What are your future travel plans?

    My future travel plans are simple and could be silly to some people, but I don’t care if it’s silly. It’s where I want to go because I want to increase my exploration skill in-real life! Below are the places I want to go just because I want to go there:

    • Iceland (between August and September): I want to participate in the Puffling patrol; you find baby Puffins (birds native to Iceland) in the city, rescue them to the nearest sea cliff, and throw them over. It is said that they live close to the sea and they get lost following the city lights, mistaking them for moonlight, which is how they navigate to the ocean.
    • Greece (May-June & September-October): I’ve always been fascinated by Greek mythology, later lessons from a YouTuber, AMO Pankration, about Hellenistic practices regarding training, health, and their history. I am also a fan of Assassin’s Creed: Odyssey, so I wanted to experience one of the main hubs, the architecture, presence, and culture, that shaped the modern world into what it is today. From Athens, to Laconia, to Mykonos, I want to visit the places in-game protagonists, Kassandra and Alexios, lived in.
    • Belgium (April-May & September-October): I wanted to visit Belgium mainly to eat authentic Belgian chocolate. Although, I would love to experience what the country has to offer: Gravensteen Castle, Belfry of Bruges, Basilica of The Holy Blood, Bruges, Ghent’s Old Town, museums, and food I’ve never tried before. Walking tours sound amazing as well.
    • Titanic Museum (Pigeon Forge, TN and Branson, MO): I came across this by chance on a YouTube short: visitors could explore a replica of The Titanic. What got my attention the most was when people could experience the water temperature the passengers felt as The Titanic sank. That was said to be one of the last things they felt before they died; chilling, icy cold water, that burned every fiber of your being. As morbid as it is, tragedy reminds us to not take what we have for granted, and sometimes we need to physically experience those reminders. I might walk out more depressed than when I walked in, but I am willing to go through with it!

    This is not the entire list of places I want to go, even though going is inspired by a video game, the places are real. I collect foreign currency because they are reminders of places I’ve been to or came into my possession by chance. I want to broaden my horizons and increase my exploration EXP to the next level.

    If anyone has been to places that are:

    • Decently known, not as widely known.
    • That has great sights, good food, is safe for tourists to explore.
    • Something new to offer: exhibits, hiking, or is interactive and has great gift shops (authentic memorabilia and craftsmanship).

    Please let me know where any of you have been, why, and what the experience was like. I would love to expand my list of places to explore and visit while I have the chance.

  • The Hum and Grind of Metal and Rubber

    What do you listen to while you work?

    I listen to the sound of a conveyor belt, it’s machination thrumming in the background, moving the freight we have to sort through at work. It often squeals, like agitated birds, whenever the belt is overloaded with more weight than it can move and abruptly halts. It resumes once we’re able to reduce the weight on the conveyor belt down, then we resume work too.

    Music had been banned in the warehouse; I don’t know why, though it’s a blessing and a curse, because we used to have someone repeat the same three Māoli songs: “Shoot Down”, “I Would Look Good on You”, and “Every Night Every Morning.”

    It got to the point where, if I heard either of those songs, I would get a visceral reaction: a brick dropping in my stomach, my body would shudder with anger and irritation, and I would use ear plugs to reduce listening to those songs. I would prefer giving in to hitting my head against the wall than listen to these songs. It’s gotten better, I don’t react as strongly as before, and I’ve grown numb instead. The songs start playing, no reaction, though I still would change it to something else.

    Somehow, along the way, we weren’t allowed to play music, even songs most of us grew up listening to. So, my coworkers and I have conversations, have our own little karaoke sessions, and do what we can to stave off boredom at work.

  • I Am One of Those Kinds of Gamers.

    What’s your favorite game (card, board, video, etc.)? Why?

    My favorite games vary on the situation; if I’m playing with family, then I like to bring my Left, Right, Center game because it can get intense when we play for money. Nothing too crazy; either quarters or dollar bills and we keep the money if we win. Nothing too crazy, no harm, no foul, and we become an ATM if we want to keep playing and we can break larger bills from our wins. More money for us! And standard family fun.

    For the PS4, then I’m obsessed with From Software’s games, “Elden Ring and Bloodborne”. These games are fun, challenging, and engaging because, unlike other video games, you can’t change the difficulty level and you have to get resourceful when trying to get through a game that doesn’t tell you what to do, where to go, except your objective. The storylines are engaging and it forces you to rethink your current play through in order to beat a low level enemy or a main boss.

    Although, my favorite XBOX360 video game has been “Final Fantasy 13” from Square Enix. When FF13 was released in 2010-2011, I was blown away by the graphics, the character designs, and the storyline as a teen. Much like the movie, “Eragon”, Final Fantasy 13’s graphics look better than some current video games and it holds a special place in my heart.

    I reminisce about replaying Final Fantasy 13 and get nostalgic when I watch the cutscenes on YouTube. Now that I got a new controller, I’ll be able to see if my XBOX360 still works. Otherwise, if it’s too old to function anymore, then I’ll take my system to my rage room job and sell it for $10-$20. I won’t be able to watch memories be destroyed by strangers and I wouldn’t be able to bring myself to destroy my gaming system!

    Else, if it’s on my phone, then I enjoy reading games where your choices affect the story. I happened upon a text based game company called, “Choice of Games LLC” and their child company, I’m not sure if that’s what it is, called, “Hosted Games LLC” back in high school. Give or take 2010 or 2011, when I first played “Zombie Exodus” in class and getting scared because of how the story was written and I wanted to make sure everyone in the game survived.

    I got a lot of the survivors killed because I wasn’t paying attention to my resources or the integrity of our stronghold and majority of the support was destroyed by the sheer force of the undead. My mismanagement led to a lot of survivors I liked to die horribly. I had to retry so many times because I didn’t want to accept that their deaths were final or canonically unchanging, despite everything I did.

    I enjoy the games on Hosted Games LLC because they were written by fans of text based games. They use the company’s source code, create a story, and can produce it as their own, like a partnership in a way. I am waiting for the next chapters of “Zombie Exodus: Safe Haven”, “Fallen Hero”, “Wayhaven Chronicles”, “The Golden Rose”, “I, the Forgotten One”, “The Fernweh Saga”, “Samurai of Hyuga”, and “The Soul Stone Wars.” I’m not promoting these games or stories, but I am waiting patiently for the next books to release so I can know how the story progresses and ends.

  • Why Not A Secured Adventure?

    Are you seeking security or adventure?

    Picking between security and adventure can be difficult. Though, even if we were to define what security and adventure looks like for us as individuals, wouldn’t it be a fun thought experiment to claim we are seeking both?

    I can understand the need to feel secure: in a home, relationship, in a career, with our finances, our life in general. Although, being able to have stories to tell, share, and recall would require we break out of our comfort zone. And, to break out of comfort zone, we have to do something that scares us. On the bright side, for the adrenaline averse, it doesn’t require jumping out of a plane, running from bulls, or street racing.

    For myself, I’ve been socially averse and anxious throughout most of my life, so getting a part time job at a rage room pushed me out of my comfort zone; It’s interactive customer service, providing safety procedures, a new experience, and it lets me work on several personal skills:

    • Customer service
    • Adaptability
    • Attention to detail
    • Sales
    • Social skills

    It’s a social job that I thoroughly enjoy. Compared to the customer service jobs I held prior, I like interacting with customers. I get to help them get excited to break things. It’s a different experience, we’ve been conditioned to take care of our things, and most people struggled to break their items because it goes against what we were taught not to do.

    It’s understandable, it’s an adventure of itself, and no one has to worry about being arrested for vandalism and destructing of property! Unless customers choose to do that after we go over safety, then that statement goes out the window.

    Where Does Security Appear?

    My part time job offers a steady paycheck every two weeks. This helps me, on top of my full time warehouse job, build my financial buffers. I won’t have to worry about not affording something because I have extra money coming in. And I can plan for my future self while having my own kind of fun in the present. It’s a win-win, even though I’m working two jobs.

    The app my part time job uses, Gusto, is amazing because I’m able to save 15% of my paycheck and have it moved into a rainy day fund, rather than a set dollar amount. Saving a percentage is better in my opinion because the number always adjusts to the total.

    Say, for example, you have to work less hours due to an injury, illness, or taking care of a loved one. With a set percentage, the amount of money being moved could be adjusted to what you earn. Same if you worked over time and that number increases. You could be saving more in that rainy day fund over time than if you set it for $20, $30, $40. You get the picture, but how you allocate your funds is ultimately up to you.

  • Seeing The Fruits of My Labor Bloom

    What are you most excited about for the future?

    The thing that I’m most excited about for in the future is seeing how much I’ve grown and how far I’ve walked from the person I used to be. My past self used to be someone I would describe as being very fortunate people put up with her. If I was a stranger interacting with my past self, then I would have ‘noped’ out and away from her.

    I could recognize, in hindsight, that I was toxic; although, I’ve gotten better at communicating, associating most feelings with words, and admitting I’m wrong. It still comes out snarky sometimes, but that’s a defense mechanism I’m working on dismantling.

    Another thing I’m excited about is getting out of debt. I have just shy of $16,000 left to pay off: $4,000 in credit card debt and $12,000 from a personal loan, but I’m paying them down aggressively so I can save more, invest more, and be more generous with my money. If I’m able to build up enough of a buffer, I’d like to be able to take time off from work and pursue opportunities I’ve never considered before.

    I’m getting bored with just working, going home, and repeat these days. I do visit my family as often as I can or I call them if I can’t, though I hadn’t volunteered since high school and that was for promoting science to elementary school children. Might as well give this a go, see what happens, and learn from people taking charge and making a difference. Who knows what kind of stories I’ll be able to tell when the time comes!

  • The Stratagem Begins: From Scarcity to Financial Empowerment: Part 1:

    The Stratagem’s Budgeting Strategy:

    Welcome, Co-conspirators, to the Financial Acquisition category of the ‘Stratagem’s Archive’. Here, I shall unveil the blueprints of my journey to forge wealth and refine my financial acumen.

    But first, a candid admission: I used to be a money miser, a penny pinching devotee. Overcoming this was a challenge that spanned years. Yet, through relentless study, meticulous observation, and the crucible of trial and error, I have diligently forged my budgeting muscles. I now wield my resources with precision, aggressively dismantling my debts while simultaneously expanding my reserves.

    The very tactics I’ve deployed are perfect for those embarking on their own financial campaigns, for several reasons:

    • A solid foundation: It builds a stronghold of accountability.
    • Field-tested Principles: You can adapt my proven methodologies, calibrating them to your unique objectives.
    • Accelerated Conquests: Bypass years of independent struggle by learning directly from my tactical missteps.

    What I’ve Learned From Trial and Error: A Mastermind’s Reckoning:

    My path to becoming financially adept – competent, confident, and literate – was fraught with gaps, bumps, and unseen traps. While I do not claim the title of a financial oracle, I have discovered how to command my capital with a select arsenal of tools: the strategic deployment of cash over credit, the unerring guidance of sound judgement, and a humble calculator.

    At the time of this writing, I am systematically eradicating $16,000 of outstanding debt. This includes just under $4,000 in credit card debt, burdened by a formidable 25.26% Annual Percentage Rate(APR), and a personal loan nearing $12,000, at a slightly less hostile 8.70% APR. The shift from my family’s domain to my own studio apartment necessitated a total recalibration of my spending and savings protocols.

    Consider this: my previous credit card usage, spanning rent, groceries, utilities, gas, subscriptions, online courses, and various indulgences, led to a critical decision. I elected to holster my credit card. It remains in my wallet – a symbolic presence – yet I’ve disciplined myself not to reach for it. My superior alternative? Cash. It is, undeniably, king.

    I bestow upon cash this regal title for several tactical advantages:

    1. The Visceral Command: cash compels you to experience the “pain of paying” or “tangible loss.” Unlike a digital transaction, paying with physical currency forces you to witness and feel the fruits of your labor depart from your grasp. Your wallet lightens. This act alone forces a ruthless prioritization of your expenditures.
    2. Eradicating Self-deception: cash thwarts the insidious illusion fostered by credit card’s “buy now, pay later” deception. The notion that money is “just numbers on a screen” is precisely how one becomes ensnared in debt’s relentless, revolving clutches.

    A Look Into a Mastermind’s Day: Deploying Cash With Precision:

    When I embark on my weekly supply acquisition – as a singular entity, unburdened by dependents(a crucial distinction for context) – I execute a precise cash withdrawal. I procure between $200-$300 and strategically distribute it among four distinct envelopes:

    1. Guilt-Free Spending: My personal allocation for any desired acquisition (a concept masterfully coined by Ramit Sethi, author of I Will Teach You to be Rich, whose work I actively employ).
    2. Giving: Building a charitable fund, for cultivating my “generosity” muscles.
    3. Blog Fund: A dedicated reserves for my digital empire, offsetting domain costs and securing future compensation.
    4. Necessities: The bulk of my withdrawals are deployed here. Sustenance, fuel, clean attire, and hygiene products are the pillars of daily operations.

    Allow me to illustrate a typical deployment: I allocate $20 to each of my four envelopes for the week, leaving me with $220. My next move is a reconnaissance of my vehicle’s fuel gauge. If my gas tank registers at or below the halfway mark, I immediately set aside $40 for replenishment. Should my fuel reserves be sufficient, that $40 is repurposed for laundry, converting into the necessary quarters for a clean uniform. Following these maneuvers, I am left with $180 for grocery provisions.

    I maintain a meticulous inventory of my apartment’s assets and deficiencies. If food reserves are low for the week, provisioning sustenance becomes the paramount objective. If soap, toothpaste, cleaning agents, or other hygiene products are scarce, these immediately ascend the priority ladder.

    Before each shopping expedition, I activate my phone’s calculator – my digital co-pilot.I precisely estimate the cost of each item I intend to acquire. This provides a crucial pre-tax approximation of my total expenditure, preventing unforeseen overruns. For instance, my recent grocery list, calculated using sticker prices, yielded an estimate of $160.80. With the application of taxes, the finally tally reached $168.38. I maintain a $20 contingency fund because the exact tax burden remains unknown until the final transaction, and I refuse to breach my cash parameters.

    This iterative process, executed with each shopping foray, has sharpened my ability to discern true value from fleeting desire. I can acquire what I deem essential, but I cannot acquire everything. This is a vital distinction, for it reveals that many items merely flirt with the “want” category rather than the need. This self-awareness is not a limitation, but a profound step towards becoming a mindful and intentional architect of your financial dominion.

    In Conclusion: Your Move, Co-conspirator:

    You’ve witnessed the power of conscious transactions, the foundational truth that lies within the simple act of cash. This is merely the first brick in your empire. For those with the ambition to command their financial future, the knowledge within the Stratagem’s Archive is indispensable.

    Decimating debt: Learn the precise tactics I’ve employed to eliminate debt and reclaiming your financial power:Eradicating A Burden: Eliminating Personal Debt to Ascend:

    The question is not if you can build your empire, but if you possess the will. Begin your deeper immersion now. Share your thoughts and experiences in the comments below. Let’s begin a productive discussion, and it is time for the Stratagem’s Archives to close. Until opening day, co-conspirators.

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  • Focus. Focus. Focus!!! What Was I Doing Again?:

    “It terrifying to have this feeling in the back of my head, scratching, whenever I’ve forgotten something, or start to think I did. Especially when the it takes as little as a few seconds, as quick as blinking once, to make a difference between being certain and having an anxiety attack at whether or not something was done. For example, whenever I lock my apartment door, I have to ‘open it’ three times to make sure it’s locked before leaving. This sounds, and it does feel, compulsive, but I do this to reassure myself because I’ve always lived with family and we had a gate and fences around the property. Not a high end, high wall, kind of fence, but a simple chain link one to separate our driveway and home from the outside and from our neighbor’s property. Even if I forgot to lock the house door, someone was always home. The same if I forgot to lock the gate, though if I had forgotten to lock the gate, then my family would had told me that our dogs ran away because of my carelessness. Living in an apartment, however, doesn’t offer that same security and reassurance a home does, so this was a new experience to get used to.

    Feeling unsure and forgetful doesn’t have to be a symptom of getting older or having ‘bad memory.’ Jim Kwik identified the problem and the solution when he said that, ‘memory is about ATTENTION, not RETENTION.’ This made so much sense because, just like my compulsion to make sure I push my door open 3 times after locking it, I know that I’m giving something as simple as making sure my current living space the proper ATTENTION needed to give myself the reassurance that no one will simply walk into my apartment because of my own carelessness. Feeling tired, hungry, stressed, worried, angry, feeling every single emotion on the wheel of emotion in existence of the human experience, anything that takes your attention away from the thing that is RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU can be the difference between a panicked state of mind and a mind at peace.

    From personal experience, using a To-Do and a Not-To-Do list, helped with several things; the habits and skills that I wanted to become engrained would eventually lead to new patterns of doing and being. Having lists, even small ones with 1-3 items on it, provides structure and order in a world full of chaos and distractions. Eliminating as many distractions from our lives helps to reduce the amount of distractions our mind clings to, whether it’s because we’re bored, aimless, or have nothing much to do, who can truly say, except ourselves and where we currently are in life? You get the picture, right? A To-Do list gives you an idea, a rough plan, and steps that can be incrementally taken and increased over time towards the person YOU want to become. Who YOU are striving towards while acknowledging, “You are HERE in this point in time, now where to go up from here?”

    A Not-To-Do list is exactly the same as a To-Do list, but rather than adding the habits and traits you want to embody, except that you are eliminating what no longer serves you. For example, while I enjoy a great video game, I have an unhealthy habit of playing for more than 5 hours on my days off. Console games, like Elden Ring and Bloodborne, are big time dumps for me: if I’m off, have no plans, or finished what I needed to earlier in the day, and I usually won’t stop until I either level my character up or defeat the next boss. If I’m not mindful, or don’t have a timer set, then I’d struggle to get through the rest of my list and it’ll feel as though I had wasted the day. Which I had if I didn’t take care of the items on my list earlier.

    By having a clear structure of what you want to take care of, with time and consistent effort, what was merely something to check off a list is now a new routine. This new routine frees up mental bandwidth to focus on the present, on the thing in front of you, and you’ll eventually feel the compulsive need to triple check something or feel as though you forgot something, but can’t easily step away to check or have someone to ask to check for you. That was a terrifying anxious experience I had once, it was awful and I couldn’t concentrate at work all morning until I was texted by family that my apartment was locked. They checked again as they do have my spare keys, but that’s my experience.

    We’re all dealing with something, taking care of someone or multiple someone’s, we need to be everyone else’s rock, their protector, provider, even for ourselves when going through our own stages of life. But having a bit of structure not only opens your mental resources to pay deeper attention to a few things, it could provide stability when life feels unstable and uncertain. Always changing and as though we’re not changing fast enough to keep up, yet we have enough space in our structure to also be spontaneous. Give a try, see what happens. If anything, you gave something new a shot and got an answer than a ‘what if.’

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