Welcome — However You Found Your Way Here
When Did You Stop Playing It Safe?
Or are you still waiting for someone, other than yourself, to give you the green light?
It hit me in the bathroom — the kind of thought that slips in when the world is quiet and you’re standing there, catching your own reflection in bad lighting. I thought back to my situation and asked:
“Why did I stop playing it safe?”
I had my own reasons for betting on myself and permit myself to build something from nothing.
I used to think I couldn’t start anything: No degree. No polished resume. No mentors. No fancy title or job that would validate me.
I wasn’t a writer, but I was just someone with a lot of feelings and nowhere to put them. I thought I had to earn a voice before using it.
I Played It Safe For Years
And then one day, I got tired of my own silence.
No big lightning bolt. No overnight transformation. Just… the simmering realization that no one was coming to rescue me or hand me a permission slip. So I stopped waiting.
I started this blog not because I had a plan or a niche, but because I had nothing to lose. I was angry. Tired. Fed up with life passing me by while I sat on the bench, hoping someone would pick me for their team.
I picked myself instead.
This Isn’t Happy Hour — It’s 2AM Hour.
My blog isn’t curated for “happy hour” energy.
It’s not the shiny, filtered, “I’ve got it all figured out” performance people put on at networking events or in the comment sections of self-help threads.
This space is for 2am honesty.
You know the kind — when your defenses are down, the mask slips off, and someone finally says,
“Actually? I’m not okay. I don’t know what I’m doing. But I’m still here.”
If this blog is a bar, I’m the bartender. I don’t drink, and I’ve never worked in a bar — but I’m here, wiping the counter down with stories from a life I didn’t think anyone would want to hear about.
The bar’s mostly quiet.
A couple of regulars lurk in the corners, reading without saying much.
The jukebox is broken.
But I keep talking, just in case someone walks in needing to hear something you only say when the lights are low and nobody’s performing.
I Don’t Have a Niche — I Have a Pulse
I’ve written and will write about:
- What it’s like to work in a rage room while living in a body full of pain.
- Paying off $15K in debt working two jobs, while trying not to let my jobs own me.
- Learning to code again after a decade of shame and bad experiences.
- What happens when my inner critic gets too loud to ignore.
- Trying to trust AI to help me build, without losing my voice to it.
- Taking life advice from video games more than self-help books.
- And much more.
I don’t have clean answers. I’m not here to teach or preach. I’m just writing to remember that I’m alive — and to see if anyone out here feels the same things I do, even if they call it something different.
So I’ll Ask You:
When did you stop playing it safe?
Or maybe a better question is —
What would you do if you stopped waiting to be ready?
Would you finally start that blog, that painting, that email, that messy first draft of something you’ve been hiding behind “someday”?
Would you speak up, even if your voice shakes?
Would you stop waiting for someone to crown you and say, “Okay, now you’re allowed to exist out loud”?
You don’t have to reply back — even silently nodding along is good enough because you’ve been in this strange in-between as I have.
I don’t know who’s going to read this. Maybe no one. Maybe just a handful of quiet people passing through like ghosts.
But if you’re here, if you’ve made it this far…
This is your invitation to stop playing it safe.
You’re allowed to be messy. To begin. To exist on your own terms.
You don’t need credentials to tell your story.
You just need to be brave enough to speak — even if it’s only to yourself at first.
I lit a flare, wondering if there’s anyone else who see’s.
If you see it from across the void, I see you, and you are welcome here anytime.
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P.S: Hey there. If you’ve missed my other posts, you can find the newer ones here down below. Or, if you’d like, you can check out my newsletter Letters from the Void Newsletter, here or check out my little PDF manifesto, Thank You + Free Download, here as a thank you for making it here to the end.
Otherwise, everyone, I will see you all later in the archives.
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