Welcome — However You Found Your Way Here
Why Starting Feels Uncomfortable (and Why That’s Okay)
When I first thought about starting my blog, discomfort wasn’t just a passing feeling—it was a weight. Thoughts swirled in my head:
“You’re falling behind in life.” “You’re stuck in jobs that only keep you afloat.” “Why aren’t you building something of your own?”
That spiral came from something as small as reading a chapter of The Opposite of Spoiled by Ron Lieber. Suddenly, I was face-to-face with questions I had avoided for years.
Life in the Grind: Between Gratitude and Restlessness
I’ve been lucky in many ways:
- I live on my own in a small studio.
- I have steady full-time work with benefits.
- I pick up part-time hours on top of that.
- I see family often, and I’m not alone.
But I also know the grind: 3AM alarms, long commutes, and sitting in traffic wondering if this is all my life will be. I should be grateful (and I am), but envy and restlessness creep in. I want more—more peace, more freedom, more of a life that feels like mine.
Why I Finally Chose to Write
I knew I couldn’t keep waiting for the “perfect time.” If I didn’t start now, I might never start at all. A blog felt like:
A break in my exhausting routine. A way to sharpen my voice and courage. Proof that clumsy and done is better than perfect and never begun.
This space isn’t about being polished—it’s about being present, learning, and creating even when it feels uncomfortable.
The Dragon We All Face
Many of us wrestle with that question: “Am I doing enough?” The truth is, it’s never comfortable to face it. But discomfort is a sign of movement, of growth, of slaying the small dragons that keep us from even trying.
I don’t have the answers yet. But I know this: starting, no matter how small, is already a victory.
A Note to Fellow Archivists
If you’ve found your way here—whether in the early morning hours, on a restless night, or during a pause in your own journey—know this space is for you too. This little archive is a safe place to reflect on your path, even if it doesn’t fit neatly into life’s expectations.
If something here resonates, I’d love to hear your thoughts. And if you’d like to walk alongside me, subscribing means you’ll also get my Letters from the Void—personal reflections and early glimpses of projects I’m building behind the scenes. And a copy of The Stratagem’s Manifesto as a thank you gift from me to you for subscribing.
Because sometimes, finding each other in the noise is proof that we’re not as alone as we thought.
Other Articles
If you’d like to explore more about doing things even though you’re not ready to comfortable to, I have other articles below too check out:
- The Moment I Stopped Waiting for Permission
- Burning the Candle at Both Ends… For What?
- Some Days I Don’t Want to Be Here — On Surviving When Everything Else Feels Heavy
- Can Sharing Honestly Be Enough? Reflections From Blogging Without a Strategy
