Describe your life in an alternate universe.
Exploring The Opposite Side of Me
I could imagine that an Alternative version of Me would have pushed through a lot of things. Alternative Me would have:
- Stood her ground or walked away from friendships that weren’t supportive of her.
- Avoided being a victim of stalking from discerning people sooner.
- Stopped being a people pleaser ASAP.
- Pushed through 1 more year of wrestling.
- Started many projects early on: YouTube, blogging, coding, game design, locking picking, investing, etc.
- Pursued scholarships to afford a full 4 years of university.
- Pursued a mentorship or went abroad for school.
- Avoided (personal loan) debts and paid with cash (for most things).
- Found an apartment sooner to learn independent living, rely on family less sooner too.
- Took my nutrition, sleep, and health more seriously.
- Spent more time hanging out with family than shutting herself in her room over the years.
Everything I currently am, the lessons I’ve learned up until now, this alternate me would have learned sooner and done things sooner with a broader and larger portfolio than what I currently have built up so far.
Very likely I would have explored and been exposed to different fields, different people, experiences, and lessons sooner because I stood up for myself and didn’t let fear control me as my current self had done for years.
So afraid of being alone, I clung to horrible friendships; So afraid of failure, I struggle to accept compliments and need constant reassurance that I’m doing alright; So terrified of being criticized that I never improving my skills or further my learning: writing, sketching, health, investing, anything until 2023 to 2025.
But I can’t dwell on the past or on what I should have done, I’ll become depressed, and I’ll need to keep working on myself and pursue the things I want to while I still have the time. I had wasted years on hypotheticals that my reality had declined until this year alone, that it’s time to put in the work now more than ever. Time to improve, learn from the past, and build my present and future regardless of where I am today!
